Ok, that's a little dramatic. I am actually just fine but how do I always seem to get myself into these ruts? I really like blogging, I like vlogging, and yet I get into these periods where I just don't want to do anything. Maybe you could call it laziness, and I guess to some degree it is, but I don't think that's it either. I don't know what it is but for those of you who do read and watch, thank you for putting up with my sporadic posts.
As for my Taiwan videos, I have two things to say about those. One, I really wasn't happy with them. I had a lot of stuff recorded and I uploaded 3 videos, but I really wasn't happy with any of them. I just felt they were boring. Beyond that my lap top's hard drive has failed again and I can't access those files until I go back to the U.S. I guess that is kind of good because once I do get back I can look at what I have recorded with fresh eyes and maybe that will inspire me to edit the footage down to just what is interesting. As of right now though, I hated what I recorded. So... yeah.
About recording vlogs in general, that is where I am struggling. I want to put out stuff that you guys will enjoy seeing but I have some things that hold me back. First and foremost is just me wanting it to be perfect, but knowing I am not that great at video making. The solution, of course, is to make more videos and get better but... see where I get into a rut? Secondly I am just not that comfortable in front of a camera. Most of all I just simply don't get a lot of views. I know why, sort of, but I don't really know how to fix it.
This blog and my videos actually take a long time to make. I film or shoot photos for hours, I come home, edit photos and video (photos alone take hours), then write the blog post. I am not complaining. I enjoy it. Mostly these posts are for myself and my family, but on some level I do want others to see my work. Not for any ego boosts but just because. When I do all this work for untold amounts of hours and see 10 views... I start to wonder, "What's the point?"
I shouldn't though. Again, this is really just for fun, so as always I will continue. Again I thank those who consume the stuff that I put out. Please keep doing so, and I will continue putting it out there. Hopefully some day it will be as polished as I want it to be, and I will have an actual schedule to my posts. Only time will tell.
By the way, my videos are here: